Desperate?!

I’ve now had three agencies tell me that they don’t think they can help me and/or that they will not represent me based on how long I’ve been out of work.  When people ask me “what have you been doing since you got laid off?” and I reply “looking for work”, they are almost always HORRIFIED and say something like “you mean, you haven’t worked AT ALL for all those months?”

I went on an interview today where the interviewer told me he took down the ad after receiving over 300 resumes.  From that group of 300, they chose 30 to interview. I was interview number one.  He had no prepared interview questions and wrote no notes about me. I will be gone from his mind completely by interview number three.  Also, he wants someone bilingual, something the one sentence ad didn’t mention.  So, I drove for almost an hour (1 way) for a 10 minute “interview” where I didn’t have a key skill needed for the job…

I have an appointment at an agency tomorrow where the rep I am meeting with says he is afraid to present me to clients because “after all these months, you’re just going to seem desperate” but he wanted me to come in and fill out paperwork anyways.  It is, quite honestly, very likely a waste of time, but I will go and dutifully fill out more paperwork so I can dutifully report to the Unemployment office that I am leaving no stone unturned in my job search.

But honestly, I am really starting to worry that I am simply not employable. And I’m pretty scared of what that is going to mean.  Unemployment payments won’t last forever. I’m not sure what to do anymore.