Insomnia = The Crazy

So, did you ever have a situation where you were not only worried “what if I don’t get the job” but ALSO “what will I do if they offer me the job?” because you weren’t really sure that this was something that you wanted to do but you were so hard up that you really need to take any job that’s offered to you (especially since the damn carpal tunnel is acting up and giving wristies behind the local 7-11 probably wasn’t the best move vocationally)… Yeah, that’s the sitch I am in at the moment. A virtual “damned if I do, damned if I don’t” situation and I honestly do not like it one little bit.

Also, a little notation to the place that I traveled 6 friggin’ hours to for an interview (round trip, but still)…thanks, you schmucks, for not even having the courtesy to send a form email telling me you didn’t want to hire me. I didn’t tell you how long the journey took me, but you sprang tests on me that I ACED and then you didn’t even send a form email out? I would have been PERFECT for that job.

I’m beginning to think that the reality is that I really don’t have the skills I need to do the work I’ve been doing. I don’t have any other skills, other than doing office work but I honestly don’t enjoy it that much. I can’t imagine what else I would do at this point in my life. Odd to be my age and have no clue what you want to be when you grow up.